maryismoran:

maryismoran:

maryismoran:

i just thought about sherlock going home after john’s wedding and just sitting alone in the dark, waiting for someone to notice he left, thinking about how he doesn’t fit into john’s life anymore and 

sherlock sitting in his chair staring at john’s chair hoping desperately for his phone to light up or for someone to walk through the door, for something to happen but it doesn’t, he’s alone like he always knew he would end up because of course he would only realize what he wants the very moment that he can’t have it anymore

sherlock remembering how john acted around sholto and realizing that it wasn’t the fact that sherlock was a man it was that john never wanted him at all. trying to breathe and feeling all the walls closing in on him and wanting something, anything, to make it stop